I think I've finally found my purpose in life.

Which is a fairly big feat for me.  I got a girlfriend yesterday and I had my first kiss with her.  I didn't get anything out of the kiss itself, but her reaction made me feel amazing.  So I'm thinking that my purpose is to make people feel good.  You know, make 'em laugh.  Make 'em feel better about their own lives by blowing up how bad mine is.  Be a kamakazi of sorts.  I don't really have much to say aside that...  I mean, nothing really interesting has happened to me lately aside my grandmother falling a few days ago.  So, I'll just drop it off here.  See ya!

Sexuality

     I saw this on television today, and I thought I'd do a post on it.  There's a woman who decided to say it was a choice to be a lesbian.  I personally think is true, and doesn't really matter.  She's bisexual, and she's been through both genders and she prefers women over men.  This doesn't really put the performance of men down or anything, it just means she'd rather be with a woman.  There are people who say that being homosexual isn't a choice, but I think it can be either.  There are some people who it wasn't a choice for.  A good example is a very close friend of mine.  She's deathly afraid of the male reproductive organs and doesn't want to be with a man at all.  She didn't have much of a choice with this.  The fear itself may have been associated with her last boyfriend, since he was an ass.  He didn't rape her or anything, to my knowledge, but he did use a guilt trip to get her to perform some sexual favours for him.  I personally think what he did was wrong, but that's just me.  I think a sexual favour should be something both people involved should want to do out of their own choice, be it the other person thinks they've earned it or if they just want to do it because they enjoy it.  But, back on topic, sometimes your sexuality is a choice.  If you're bisexual it's always a choice to be with a man or a woman simply because you enjoy both.  I think there're some things in both genders that're good for each person.  It's just true.
     Also, since women seem to be getting a lot more empowered lately, I'd like to say my opinion on all of this.  Women and men do play different parts in society.  It's just unavoidable.  Women were historically the primary caregivers of the hearth and home.  They took care of the husbands, they cooked the food the husbands obtained, they cleaned the house with the tools the men bought and made.  In the days before the woman's liberation movement, and before women were oppressed, women and men had an equal role in the house.  Men provided the tools and food, women used the tools to clean and used the food to cook.  I'm not saying a woman's job is less important.  I mean, a man will never be able to clean as well as a woman, simply because men aren't as good at paying attention to detail.  Women will never be able to hunt and things like that as efficiently as men because their brains weren't made to aim that well.  Men and women, in my personal opinion, play completely different roles in society, each is equally important.  I think, in a decently run world, women and men should make their lives easier if they were a bit more dependant on each other, but could live just as well without one another.  I personally think that a woman, who's with a man at least, should stay home.  Women nowadays don't want to be married because it increases their stress levels.  Some women have jobs, kids, and a home.  Their husbands have a job, kids, and a home.  That combination should never happen.  I think the man should worry about the job and keeping the home and the woman should focus on keeping the kids happy and keeping the home a home instead of just a place for your stuff.  Now, all of this being said, I'm not biased to either gender.  Humans simply could not exist without both genders.  Without men, even with the sperm banks, sperm would eventually run out.  And when it did, no more humans.  Without women the eggs would run out, as well.  They're both equally important.
     Now, I'd like to say my opinions on racism and sexism.  I don't think our differences should be ignored, because we're all different.  A woman has a vagina, a man has a penis.  Some people have black skin, some have white, some have yellow, some have brown, and I'm pretty sure at the north pole it's cold enough for them to have blue skin.  It's unavoidable.  But I don't think we should put people down for those differences, or pick them up.  I think we should realize them and put them aside at times they're not needed.  Everyone's different in their own way, it's true and will always be true.  I don't think someone should be restricted due to their colour, gender, or their sexuality, but by their intellect and physical ability.
     All that said, I'm not a racist or a sexist.  Nor am I against being homosexual, heterosexual, or bisexual.  I notice people are different, but I don't insult them on that.  I insult them on how they act, because that's what I feel really matters.

Views on the sexual offenders list and sex.

     Okay, I think the people on the sex offenders list should be revised as to who's on it.  I know people who were nineteen and had sex with a sixteen year old girlfriend and wound up on the list because the parents found out.  I think that's honest crap.  Personally, I don't believe in having sex before you're eighteen, but I still think if a sixteen year old consents to have sex with a nineteen year old, the nineteen year old should go to jail, yes, but they shouldn't be on the sex offenders list.  There's a difference in having sex with a sixteen year old and having sex with a nine year old.  The sixteen year old has the mindset and knowledge of what sex is.  The nine year old doesn't.  I personally think once the kid gets to high school it should be jail time if they have sex with an eighteen year old (jail time for the eighteen year old) but I think it should be lesser than someone who's had sex with a nine year old.  I think this because the high school kid knows what sex is and knows what it can bring.  They know that they can say no.  If they have sex with the person and they break up it's their own fault.  But because they had sex and they wound up breaking up the older person gets put on the sex offenders list for the rest of their life.  I mean, I personally think that's crap.  If you have an opinion and you can post it intelligently, do so.  Any arguments presented in an unintelligent manner will be trolled hard and disregarded by me.  Post them in the comments section.

Orange Dream

What happened?
That time when we were so close...
Is it that it never mattered?
No, it couldn't be, this I know

When I feel those words you speak
Softly running through every muscle in my body
The smell of you now feels so meek
Even though my senses are quite shoddy
I know that it couldn't have been a lie

Those words which feeling belong to me
The smell, which touched me ever so tender
Is beginning to render old memories
Like an Orange Dreamsicle, just out of the blender

Then again, I guess I've lived a dream
Just one day too long
And I'm hoping that it's not just an exaggerated gleam
I'm hoping this dream isn't wrong

I'm hoping one day I can live it
Even if it's just for an hour
I'd be happy even for a minute
Guess it's time for one more cold shower...

Oh, Hai

     I'm a gamer who lives their life to the fullest.  I play games for the same reasons non-gamers play games.  I listen to ICP, Rick Astley, Tech N9ne, Metallica, Luciano Pavoratti, and Lady GaGa (not at the same time.)  I'm a joker, and a smoker.  I respect your decisions to listen to types of music that I don't care for.  I'm a Juggalo, a Techn9tian, and a wiccan.  I'm from the gaming part of the Internet.  I'm a classhole of all trades, and someone who's not too bad of a person once you get to know them.  You do your thing, I'll do mine.  I won't try to convert you over to my thing if you leave me alone.

So, I've been thinking...

     What if the world as we know it doesn't really exist?  What if it's just a collection of hallucinations that people have seen over the years and psychologically transmitted to other beings we call ''humans?''  I mean, what if the world's just a flat, barren wasteland and all of the things we see on a day-to-day basis are just imagined?  All of the sights, sound, everything that we readily hear are just the past imaginations of people?  I'm starting to believe this because wishful thinking has taken a big toll on my life.  I mean, just about everything that I hope will happen, happens.  Bad or good.  It's getting to me.  The computer you're sitting at while reading this was made of parts that were made of materials that were hallucinated by a being that came centuries before you.  Every scientific property of anything known to man was put like that because some being years and years ago wanted it like that, and we've just had to follow what that being wanted.  Animals don't exist, nor do trees, nor do any objects you care about, animate or inanimate, aside intelligent beings.  (This is what I think about in my spare time...  I really need to get a life.)

Why I'm a Juggalo.

     I'd like to start out saying that I find it mildly funny that the first thing suggested as a correction for Juggalo was Jugular.

     That aside, I've been asked by several people over the years why someone of my intellect became a Juggalo.  I have a few reasons that I'll list here since I have nothing better to do at 4:20 AM.

     I started to listen to Juggalo music about three years ago (my Freshman year in high school.)  The first song I'd heard was Fuck the World by the Insane Clown Posse.  It was suggested to me by a Senior from that year who was section leader for the trumpets at school.  After listening to that song a few times I'd gotten into the album it's on, which is The Amazing Jeckel Brothers.  I slowly got interested in the rest of the Joker Card series of albums that ICP had made.  I became a Juggalo around December of my Freshman year in high school, and I've been one ever since.  Never looked back and thought that it was a bad choice.  That's one lesson you have to learn from life:  Do nothing you'll regret and regret nothing you do.  That's how I live, and aside the fact that school's still driving me nuts, I'm a pretty happy guy.

     After I became a Juggalo, I started to study things involving ICP's music and now I'm to the point where I can list you every joker's card, the track listing to it, how long it is, and what year it came out.  I'm a good learner, even though I'm more than likely becoming a high school drop-out.  But, back to the topic, after I learned ICP like the back of my hand I started listening to Anybody Killa (ABK), then Blaze Ya Dead Homie (Blaze), then Dark Lotus (Lotus), then Axe Murder Boyz (AMB).  I've sidetracked to other artists like Sublime, Tech N9ne, The Dirty Heads, Etcetera, Etcetera.  They're all good artists, I suggest anyone reading this look them up sometime.

     I think the reason I've stayed a Juggalo so long, though, is because it offers a sense of family that I've never really had.  My dad left the state when I was five, and every time I talk to him he's drunk off his ass and yelling.  My mom was just never there for me.  My grandmother died a couple years back.  My great grandma drives me up a wall constantly (which is why I sleep from 6 PM to 2 AM.)  My aunt was there for me for a while, and still is to an extent.  But that's just about it.  Other than that, I have a close friend who I call my sister on occasion.

     So, for all of you wondering why I'm a Juggalo, and why I stick by being a Juggalo, here you are.